Being an Overcomer..

Wow, it has been forever since I have blogged on here; but guess what?? It won’t be that long until I blog again.. LOLOL!!

So, yesterday I had every intention to blog about one of the most real, most controversial, most unexpected questions I have ever been asked on a radio interview I did years ago..

I started writing and had to save it because I am still on the campaign trail and had a million things to take care of; therefore, I decided to edit it and put it on the shelf so that I could add my pix as well as personal touch today so I could post it and get back to work but GoD had another plan for my message today!!

It is the message of watching one that I LoVe(d) dearly, suffer, almost die in the hands of her husband, overcome and get back to living L.I.F.E as if NOTHING ever tried to destroy her..

My disclaimer is the following: I will NOT share any names but this is ALL true accounts that I am sharing with you today..

Imagine, I was only 10, in the essence of my youth with the world so bright before mii; as I had my family and friends all around mii!! I studied hard as I was taught too, played games with neighborhood kids, attended dance classes and ultimately didn’t have much to worry about until she went and got married.. My best friend at the time, though she was much older than mii, ok about a dozen years or so but it didn’t matter because she told everyone that she was really my mother and we did everything together.. We laughed and joked as we were in and out of Fl., Haiti and New York City, yup, it was awesome that she came to live with us, her family!!

“Ki sa, ammmwwwaaayyyyy… Pou ki sa li fe sa mem?? Et ti moun yo?? Eske yo ok??”

What I have said was what I heard from the elders, as they were inundated with questions and fear as to their relatives safety as well as the safety of one child she held in her arms, that were so very fragile with blood pumping out of one, and the baby that was still nestled in her womb, with no knowledge of the pain her very own father was inflicting on her mother and possibly on her eldest sister…..

I sat in fear, wide – eyed, shaking and trying to fight back the tears that wanted to explode  from their dwelling, I had to be strong, I had to remain calm!! I had to fight the monster who was trying to kill the ones I loved so much.. But how could I do anything about the situation, by this point, I was only like 11 and had NO way of saving anyone because I couldn’t even save myself..

Would she be ok?? Would he go to jail?? How were the little ones?? Will I ever see them again?? How could this be happening?? We were always sooooooooo #Happy as a closed knit loving family??

Friends, the situation I am referring to is one of many that would occur between a very close relative of mine who chose to love and honor her abusive, alcoholic, vindictive husband whom she didn’t know of his nature prior to them saying their vows..

The Lord truly has an interesting way of bringing things to one’s remembrance as I forgot about the many years of the abuse that this person endured, until I saw him again, in a family photo with the same family he tried to kill 2 decades prior!! How could he stand there, smiling and taking pictures with them I thought?? Does he NOT have any shame?? Where is his sense of pride, surely he could have sent a check or bouquet of of flowers but Lord, he really showed up to his first borns graduation and he is acting like he did something, as if he contributed much more than his semen!!

I close here, I began to think of the things he did to my family, what he did to my non – existent LoVe L.I.F.E because every time I thought of the abuse, the drinking, the 911 calls, how he intimidated others with his education and power, I wanted to throw up; instead let mii tell you what GoD did…….

He showed mii how beautiful they were!!

GoD showed mii that they did endure hell on earth for many years but that NEVER broke her or the children, he could have accomplished his demented plan of killing them off but it didn’t happen for a reason that still boggles mii..

Less than 8 years later, the same one who almost died, called mii to tell mii that I was the Only Christian in the Family and I had to Pray for Sandy, my Beautiful Cousin who was shot in the head and was fighting for her L.I.F.E!!

Why was Sandy taken, yet she lived after receiving multiple stab wounds, being hospitalized and having to get more stitched than I could count??

Though I don’t know the reason, I know this….. As I looked at the picture again and again, I saw what determination looks like, I understood what being an overcomer truly means; furthermore, I realized that it doesn’t matter how many times he tried to take her {them} out.. What matters is that she and they are still standing..

Today, I can share this tid bit about mii and NOT cry my eyes out too and that is because I am also an OVERCOMER!! Though I was NOT almost killed by a man that was supposed to love mii and be there for mii for our eternities, I found a way to overcome the ones that appeared so kind and innocent and wait for what  was (is) truly mine to be..

Friends, rejoice when you too have OVERCOME.. I know I will NOW and forever more!!

To you, my family.. Congratulations again on your Victory!!

Yours Truly,

AniYa A.                                                         The one who watched for years

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Did He Know??

Well, I usually do NOT blog about my loveless existence but today I had to let go of a part of  me that has been fighting this uphill battle…… I wonder if he ever knew??

Years ago, when my beautiful cousin Sandy Jeanty (she is the gorgeous one on the left, I am on the right…. people have said we favor one another in the past and I never thought so until I was playing around in my bathroom getting ready for night out, what do you think??) was murdered by her fiance’ it left this hole in my heart and it is NOT just because I couldn’t believe she was gone just like that, here one day and gone the next but it was also because I NEVER wanted to love again, I NEVER wanted to date again NOR did I ever see myself as being married and it was because of the abuse I had seen prior to my cousins death but her situation really had a number on me!!

I ran from relationships, I ran from two marriage proposals and what was most scary was I thought I could run away from me….. I say that to say that the person I once was NO longer lived and it killed me as I wanted so badly to love and be loved but how could that happen when I just knew I would end up hurt too, or even worse I could be killed by someone (my man or future mate for L.I.F.E) who was supposed to be there to have and to hold, through sickness and health, till death did us part!! How could I forget the way I felt that night I heard the news and pretend that I didn’t see ALL the stories in the media re: to domestic violence..??

Did He Know??

How was I supposed to tell him that I was afraid of him and though he seemed like a nice enough guy, secretly my heart raced and my body was uneasy every time we met and spoke……??

It’s been over a decade since my cousin was taken from me and in that time, I wrote a novel; “After ALL the Pain” is a fiction piece that I created and worked on for many years, the two main characters have this love that I actually envy, but then again I wrote it because I want it in my day to day living but I knew I could NEVER receive it because I was NOT ready……

Today, I am ready for the possibilities of LOVE  but I have recently discovered something about those who come into your L.I.F.E, 1. they will either stick around to find out what those little issues are that one tries to conceal or 2. they will string you along, become tired of the non verbal cues but also will lose the desire of being with you because they are truly NOT meant to be with you.. In my case, I wanted to open up, I wanted to share that there was a place I wanted to be right there in his arms, hidden from every aspect of the blatantness of the worlds foolery but he NEVER understood that the words could NOT escape my secret place of security and solitude; ironically enough, he played one game after another and utilized my own dismissal of his attempts to get back at me, “I’m so busy, You know I am really busy these days, Yup, I have been extremely busy with ………”

Well, DUH, I know you are busy but did you know why I was busy??

To you: I only said it out of frustration to be as cool as you.. I only said it because deep down inside I needed an escape from my situation fighting one pain after another, struggling some days to even stay awake as the medications that were being pumped into my system were sooooooo strong that the word drowsy written on the bottles were a complete understatement as to how I felt, I met you just a couple of years after suffering from a blood clot in my lung for crying out loud, from just being told that I would NEED to be on Dialysis possibly for the rest of my L.I.F.E, I met you when I was at my worst – fighting for my right to live again…. I said I was busy because that word actually protected me!!

Years later, you are off doing BIGGER things I could have imagined for you and I am here working on me continuously – matter of fact, I am NO longer in excruciating pain, I thankfully NEVER had to be on Dialysis for my kidney and yes my kidney function is better NOW than ever, I am living on my own in the City I LOVE, working for myself on a company I created through the grace of GoD.. I give back because of my story but mostly because of my Sandy, see while you were running around pretending to be “oh so busy”, I was staying very busy too….. I realized that though you have everything I could have ever dreamed of in a man, you could of ended up being just like the one that took my Sandy’s L.I.F.E over a dozen years ago…… Did you know that when your staff blew me off, it made me stronger?? Did you know when you wouldn’t listen to my voice as you pretended to be engaged in something more important than what I had to say, I would envision more projects and ways to help others out of their situation??

Does he know I will NOT bother him anymore as I finally have let that chapter close and though I may be missing out on something that I have NEVER had, I prefer to exist doing what I LoVe in a state of mind knowing that everything will truly be alright..

Did HE even want to Know??

Ladies (Men too), I am speaking to you who has gone through a battle, you have fought to feel loved again but are still in your situation because you don’t feel good enough to start over?? I am speaking to the one who like me has had to fight for everything you own yet still don’t know how to love what you own or even yourself, I am speaking with the ones who have lost a dear relative or friend to the hands of a monster!! I am speaking to the one who knows that he (or she) doesn’t even know your struggle but he (or she) is still there..

My dearest ones, what ever your situation is – seek help and get a fresh start!! I did through lots omg lots of prayer and going to different seminars, working with Pastors as well as going to church and I am whole again, do I miss my cousin and what her L.I.F.E could have been?? Of course I do, but that is why I am able to share this part of me with you….. Don’t be afraid of LoVe because of what has happened in the past, learn from it, grow from it and conquer whatever fear you have that is trying to stop you from getting it!!

I don’t know if “He” will ever know this and honestly, I don’t think he will care, I have grown a lot in the past few years and because of what was going on for a period of my L.I.F.E with “Him” I now am more confidant, stronger and wiser.. Oh yea, I will be less BUSY too now as I am much Better and more embracing of the possibilities too..

Your Praying Friend,

AniYa A.

 

 

 

 

HE IS HERE, HE HAS RISEN, HE IS ALIVE

Today, is Easter Sunday and I have a jammed packed agenda, before I even had my cup of coffee the Lord came to me in a still, soft voice and spoke with me saying, it is NOT by our Will but it is what HE wants…. As of late, my walk with GoD has gotten stronger and it is funny because I have been asked questions like, “How do you know HE even exists, why do you go to church after ALL you have been through, if GoD truly is here then why is there so much pain, suffering and violence around the world??”

I have tried to answer different questions but often share that HE gives us Free Will.. 

See friends, this morning when I felt HIM with me it made sense that if HIS Son Jesus couldn’t just NOT do what the Father wanted, then none of us are different…..When I am asked those aforementioned types of questions; I sit back and recall a time my own Faith had been shattered, I recall a time I started to NOT believe and when I sat in my quiet room and prayed directly and asked HIM to please let me know if HE was with me and furthermore, I asked HIM for HIS help as I couldn’t even believe on my own at that point!! HE showed up in my dark room and comforted me but HE also left me with an everlasting peace that I have had since….. Have I been through a lot in my L.I.F.E, yes I have but do I have a GoD whom will NEVER leave me NOR forsake me, yes I do have that too!!

If you do NOT remember anything in this post, please remember that ANYONE who gives their L.I.F.E to Christ will be #Blessed for Eternity….. How do I know, because I once was where you are today!! I once was on the fence, I once didn’t have anyone to speak to about how I was feeling and I once was a sinner and NOW I am saved by HIS grace..

If you have NOT received Jesus and feel the NEED to know HIM Better, say this prayer today: “Father, in your name I come. I desire to know you better, I am sorry for ALL I have done that has been against you and I ask you to come into my L.I.F.E today…. I ask in the name of your Resurrected Son Jesus that you heal me, deliver me, set me free, keep me, wrap your arms around me and Jesus I ask that you save me from my own selfishness, my issues, my sins, my bad habits and please just save me from myself….. I NEED you today and I LoVe You!! Thank you Jesus for Saving Me.. In your name I pray!!”

If you have said that prayer and meant it, know that you are Saved; now it is time for you to find those who are Saved, Sanctified and full of the Holy Ghost so you can learn and grow.. Last thing, alot of people who say they are saved are still battling with many issues so please be cautious out there….. If you NEED a friend, a prayer partner, someone to listen to you….. Feel free to write to me at: prayedforfreedom@gmail.com or connect with me via FB: AniYa A Period and I will help you though prayer of course but also connecting you with others, I will share churches that I know will be a blessing as well as share scriptures that I know will encourage and motivate you !!

May you ALL Be Blessed on this Amazing Day….. I feel chains are being broken and I will receive a Salvation Testimony very soon, I am praying for each of you and know that you are loved..

Your Sister in Christ,

AniYa A.

P.S. ‘Never Be Bound Again’ by Bishop Paul S. Morton is the song for you today!!

“Learning Patience While You Wait..”

It’s presently 1130pm and though I have a ton of things to do and emails to get back to before I start my day tomorrow, I had to drop everything to write this……..

So, though 2015 started off rocky – I made it and to mii that is NO small feat!! As I began to finally get my footing, started a new gig, working on new events for the young people through my small business, Freedom Entertainment Group, I became overwhelmed (in a good way obviously) with gratitude towards GoD that in everything I was going through, HE totally kept mii.. Then it happened, yup more people around mii were getting engaged and/ or getting married and that also meant babies were popping up like weeds too!!

Sure, I had been proposed to many times in my day, but I always knew that the one GoD had for mii would be different from everyone else.. What is funny, is even as of late there have been guys tryin to “Hooollllaaaaa” and I have turned them down because they too were NOT right!! I wasn’t worried about a date or having someone for my bday in October, spending Christmas or New Years with that “Special Someone” but for some odd reason, I spoke with GoD and practically told HIM that I wanted to be with someone special for Valentines Day and that would be that….. Oh Boy was that the wrong thing to do, first of ALL we CANNOT tell GoD what to do because HE is GoD ALL by HIMSELF and for 2. what was it that made mii want to ALL of a sudden be with someone for that day and NOT for the rest of my L.I.F.E??

See Fam, with the media perpetuating love, sex and relationships whether good or bad in our faces constantly, it makes it rather difficult for someone who is trying to wait on GoD to physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually  and literally wait on HIM.. I, for one have NEVER really seen good examples of Christian relationships growing up, so everything I have been learning in my adult years has been through reading the Word and trusting GoD while I learn to be patient because HE is my Father and cannot lie to mii….. I cannot discredit many leaders I listen to and watch such as Bishop TD Jakes and First Lady Serita , the Obamas, Joel Osteen and his lovely wife and many more!!

I say ALL this to say:

If GoD has promised you something, know that you will receive it.. It doesn’t matter whether or NOT you know where it is coming from NOR if it doesn’t come when you want it to, just have the Faith (Hebrews 11:1) to know it will come in due season as there is a time for everything (Ecclesiastes 3)…… Today, though I do NOT have that special someone in my L.I.F.E, I am thankful in the Waiting Experience because the more I wait is the more I learn to Trust HIM and I know that HE is preparing my soul mate as HE continues to prepare mii!! Love should NEVER be rushed and to be honest, there is NO rush when we are in GoD; I know HE has called mii to study the Word, Minister to the broken souls around mii and ultimately HE is allowing mii to go through many trials too because I used to think L.I.F.E was very fun, easy going and care – free while I selfishly did what I wanted to do, when I wanted too…… If you are in the Waiting Process, I suggest you continue to pray, wait, trust and believe that though you (insert laugh out loud here) didn’t have someone for these past holidays, like mii that the person who is for you, is waiting for you two to be together as well!!

To my Future Hubz, I am kind of glad we haven’t linked up yet because trust mii, I would have done something foolish already and you would probably be running for the hills; I thank GoD that HE is preparing us both and I pray that you are praying for our Future just as much as I am praying for it too..

Jesus, thank you for preparing us both as you already know each of us and what we are capable of but also what can hinder us from the destiny that you have spoken for us (Jeremiah 29:11) – to anyone reading this who has been struggling with Waiting, begin to pray about it and ask GoD to truly Help You!!

Your Praying and Waiting Sister,

 

AniYa A.

Blessings to you ALL 

 

Psalms 41

It was a windy day and it was as if a tornado was sweeping through The Treasure Coast. I had just volunteered to take a friend to the doctor as her baby (whom I loved very much) was not feeling good and though it was a nasty day out, I could not see the baby suffering. Upon me dropping my friend off at the doctor with her precious infant, I decided to take a trip to visit Mama Hazel and Mama Linda of  In the Image of Christ in Ft. Pierce, anytime I was going through something I knew going to visit these two would change my perspective and I would feel better too!

Moments after I walked in Mama Linda had me to sit down and Mama Hazel shared that they were having an event and that she had just picked the Bible verse to add to the program; without hesitation, she asked me if I wanted to hear it?

I said, yes I would!

“Psalms 41 says: Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble. The Lord will preserve him, and keep him alive; and he shall be blessed upon the earth: and thou wilt not deliver him unto the will of his enemies. The Lord will strengthen him upon the bed of languishing: thou wilt make all his bed in his sickness. I said, Lord, be merciful unto me: heal my soul; for I have sinned against thee. Mine enemies speak evil of me, When shall he die, and his name perish? And if he come to see me, he speaketh vanity: his heart gathereth iniquity to itself; when he goeth abroad, he telleth it. All that hate me whisper together against me: against me do they devise my hurt. An evil disease, say they, cleaveth fast unto him: and now that he lieth he shall rise up no more.  Yea, mine own familiar friend, in whom I trusted, which did eat of my bread, hath lifted up his heel against me. But thou, O Lord, be merciful unto me, and raise me up, that I may requite them. By this I know that thou favourest me, because mine enemy doth not triumph over me. And as for me, thou upholdest me in mine integrity, and settest me before thy face for ever. Blessed be the Lord God of Israel from everlasting, and to everlasting. Amen, and Amen.”

Mama Hazel read this scripture with so much joy in her heart and as she spoke Mama Linda smiled her sweet smile, while I thought to myself, “How did she know I needed to hear that at this exact second?” That’s when it became rather clear that it wasn’t her who knew but it was GoD in HIS Divine Mercy and Grace.

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It’s like this, my brethren while we are going through the most horrendous situations in our lives we tend to want to give up because we do NOT expect hardships NOR do we expect to make it through to the other side of pain. That day I stopped into the headquarters of one of my most favorite Ministries, I just wanted to be in the presence of women whom share pieces of their hearts with me. These women are so loving, compassionate and caring that I could be boo whoo crying and ALL they have to do is look into my eyes and say a simple word. Tonight, this message is for someone going through a battle in decision making.

This message is NOT a typical message that I would write as it is actually going to give someone an answer they have been seeking GoD for, here is the Divine Revelation of why this is going to answer a question for you! NOT only is it Divinely Appointed for me to share it before the midnight hour but it is also because you have been wanting to go into one direction, maybe into a ministry that you had your heart set on but you have been conflicted in your spirit as now you are changing your mind but are NOT sure if you are making the right choice. Tonight, the Lord is saying, come to HIM, sit still in HIS presence and know that HE is here with you! You will get the sign you have been seeking and it has to do with helping those in NEED of what you can help them with.

YOU, yes YOU, have a special gift that brightens others days when you are near and sometimes when you are NOT making others smile, you feel down and out. Wow, do you know what I am talking about? I believe YOU do…… The Lord does and did know you would read this and HE is saying it’s ok, let HIM HELP YOU!

{To Mama Hazel and Mama Linda, I don’t know if you understand how much you have encouraged me throughout the years but that day was sooooooo special to me and I will never ever ever forget it and I pray for you 2 always too}

Have a #Blessed night.

AniYa A.

 

 

Don’t Walk By

Over a week ago, I was given a flyer which had a powerful photo on it but also stated the powerful words towards the bottom right corner, “Don’t Walk By!” At first glance, I knew this event would be up my alley of giving back i.e. paying it forward; however, being there to experience what I experienced was much more amazing than I could have imagined.

My sister in Christ with the heart of gold, “Grace” gave me the flyer and shared that I should check it out since she knew I would get a blessing from blessing others. She was absolutely correct. I was completely #Blessed by this initiative to give to those whom have so little but often times they have much more than the richest of these! See, homelessness is a prevalent situation that is taking America by storm but what I have come to find out is those whom are homeless sometimes do NOT even look like they are and you just would never know. I got to the beautiful church, Bethel Gospel Assembly 2-26 E. 120th St, mins. before we were supposed to start walking the streets of DWB3Harlem (and in my group we walked ALL up and down Central Park) where we would share the love of GoD with those whom needed a message and/ or prayer and we were to also encourage those whom looked like they were really down and out or even sleeping on the streets to come into the church and get the help they needed.

I NOT only got to pray for our brothers and sisters throughout NYC but I also made new friends on my team whom attend another church on the Upper East Side. These friends are very special to me because we now have this really cool and L.I.F.E changing bond because we were able to change many lives. My people, I want you to stay encouraged and know that NO matter what you are facing, it is just NOT that bad. As a prayer warrior for several organizations as well as TBN, I can tell you story after story of prayer requests that I often was NOT prepared for. But this past weekend made sense to me that GoD in HIS Divine Nature was preparing for such a time as this!

To my new friends on Team A. (what are the odds – #Smile) I just want to thank you again for your graciousness and loving hearts towards the community and to ALL of the leaders whom work so diligently to make a difference in our city, thank you too for ALL you do! May GoD continue to Bless and keep you always.

For those whom wanted info on how to volunteer your time and efforts hand in hand with “Don’t Walk By,” please see the following flyers and you can also click on this website, you still have three more days to attend and volunteer: http://www.dontwalkby.org

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Your Paying It Forward Sister in Christ,

AniYa A.

Give back Friends, GoD Bless You ALL!

Falling

Today (12.4.15) as I was rearranging different items in my closet, one of my winter coats started to fall……..

As I went to try to grab it before it hit the ground,  I thought if I try to stop this thing I may hurt myself in the process!! Utilize your creativity and see where I am; I was standing near the frame of the door and there were a few hangers near my leg on my right side as well as my chair that I was utilizing to get to the top shelf to my immediate left, so let’s just say that trying to grab that Gap coat would have been more detrimental than beneficial.. Within a few seconds, my mind shifted to how quickly we can be up one day and down right on our bums the next, so why am I writing today you may be wondering??

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EASY, many people are experiencing stages of uncertainty presently; there are those whom are saddened by the lost of loved ones, then you have those whom NEVER had anyone to love from birth because NO one took the time to stick around for them and finally you have those whom have everything under the sun yet they still are incredibly miserable.. As that coat made its way towards the ground, I felt hopeless and then I started to blame myself for allowing such a nice article of clothing to be in such a less than satisfactory position, friends L.I.F.E happens and we have the choice to either stay down or get back up daily!! When my coat was on the floor, I also started to think about people I meet daily and how they freely share their stories with mii..

Some stories are so heart wrenching that I spend time going over their problems in my own head, forgetting my own issues, but you want to know the stories I like the most?? It’s the ones where people have fallen over and over but they pull themselves back up again.. The Bible says this about the Righteous who falls, “The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again. But one disaster is enough to overthrow the wicked.” Proverbs 24: 16 Fall2.jpg

NOW, I am speaking to someone who is struggling at this Moment –

Whatever you are going through today, this week, this past month etc. know that even when you are Falling, have Fallen, Fell down, you can and will get back up but you have to know it in your mind, heart and soul.. There are sooooooooo many promises in the Bible such as Jeremiah 29:11 (which happens to be one of my favorites – sorry if I am being redundant with this one but it really gives mii a ton of hope – AmEn) Hebrews 11:1 re: the Faith we NEED to Proceed, you can even find strength and courage to go on through a simple passage such as Psalms 1; especially, where it says to stand still – see in standing still we receive instruction that we otherwise would NOT have received had we been running to and fro….

I hope you have seen some light in your situation in reading this message, I want to leave you with this last verse(s) which I debated with my self about sharing but I see how it comes together and I know that GoD is going to help each of you today as HE helped mii to write this for HIS Edification..

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Love You ALL Alwayz,

AniYa A.