Why Am I Still Up?? LoLoL 

Many times we let small things get in the way of the Destiny that we often dream about, that we often pray about or like in my case that we spend a decade writing  about!!

Recently, I opened up to my business manager and totally shared details of my ongoing saga of the powerful, Sexxxii, brilliant man who captured my heart, first through my creative nature as I wrote about this pseudo relationship between him and the main character of my novel for years.. Then in person, just being him, smiling his beautiful smile, giving to those around him openly, rather freely and then she says, “AniYa, my mother always says, when you pray to GoD for something; believe you will get it and don’t push it away……”

“OMG’, I thought, ‘was she in my head or did she just have more wisdom than I fathomed??!!” Alas, I just realized that I didn’t have to question anything anymore and she was rite!!

Back to how I feel and how when our eyes met across the room, I forgot everything that ever was the matter before.. It was like I knew he was there, standing, chatting, being — him..

Him, the person I saw again after a year, looking ever so amazing and a tad bit dishelved, he didn’t have to be perfect for anyone else, because when I looked into his eyes, this time I saw something different!!

How does he know what goes on in my mind, my dreams?? How does he know the inner depths of mii?? How is it that I would drop everything to be near him, what kind of hold of does he even have on mii??

As I looked beyond the past and waved back, I noticed that words were NOT needed nor much movement..

Is this what LoVe is really like??

Respect, passion, secret messages of darn it’s been a while I just want to hug you.. It’s cool, I see you working the room, I see you doing you!! I’ll lay low for a minute but when I speak, this time it will be intentional..

Finally, I found more truth and naturally it excites mii!! I am more at peace totally, infinitely, he is revealing more to mii!!

Why am I up so late??

The more I’m up, is the more I create!!

  • Stay tuned for much more if what is turning out to be something I am coming to truly appreciate.. It’s ALL about Him & Mii!!

AniYa A.

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“Learning Patience While You Wait..”

It’s presently 1130pm and though I have a ton of things to do and emails to get back to before I start my day tomorrow, I had to drop everything to write this……..

So, though 2015 started off rocky – I made it and to mii that is NO small feat!! As I began to finally get my footing, started a new gig, working on new events for the young people through my small business, Freedom Entertainment Group, I became overwhelmed (in a good way obviously) with gratitude towards GoD that in everything I was going through, HE totally kept mii.. Then it happened, yup more people around mii were getting engaged and/ or getting married and that also meant babies were popping up like weeds too!!

Sure, I had been proposed to many times in my day, but I always knew that the one GoD had for mii would be different from everyone else.. What is funny, is even as of late there have been guys tryin to “Hooollllaaaaa” and I have turned them down because they too were NOT right!! I wasn’t worried about a date or having someone for my bday in October, spending Christmas or New Years with that “Special Someone” but for some odd reason, I spoke with GoD and practically told HIM that I wanted to be with someone special for Valentines Day and that would be that….. Oh Boy was that the wrong thing to do, first of ALL we CANNOT tell GoD what to do because HE is GoD ALL by HIMSELF and for 2. what was it that made mii want to ALL of a sudden be with someone for that day and NOT for the rest of my L.I.F.E??

See Fam, with the media perpetuating love, sex and relationships whether good or bad in our faces constantly, it makes it rather difficult for someone who is trying to wait on GoD to physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually  and literally wait on HIM.. I, for one have NEVER really seen good examples of Christian relationships growing up, so everything I have been learning in my adult years has been through reading the Word and trusting GoD while I learn to be patient because HE is my Father and cannot lie to mii….. I cannot discredit many leaders I listen to and watch such as Bishop TD Jakes and First Lady Serita , the Obamas, Joel Osteen and his lovely wife and many more!!

I say ALL this to say:

If GoD has promised you something, know that you will receive it.. It doesn’t matter whether or NOT you know where it is coming from NOR if it doesn’t come when you want it to, just have the Faith (Hebrews 11:1) to know it will come in due season as there is a time for everything (Ecclesiastes 3)…… Today, though I do NOT have that special someone in my L.I.F.E, I am thankful in the Waiting Experience because the more I wait is the more I learn to Trust HIM and I know that HE is preparing my soul mate as HE continues to prepare mii!! Love should NEVER be rushed and to be honest, there is NO rush when we are in GoD; I know HE has called mii to study the Word, Minister to the broken souls around mii and ultimately HE is allowing mii to go through many trials too because I used to think L.I.F.E was very fun, easy going and care – free while I selfishly did what I wanted to do, when I wanted too…… If you are in the Waiting Process, I suggest you continue to pray, wait, trust and believe that though you (insert laugh out loud here) didn’t have someone for these past holidays, like mii that the person who is for you, is waiting for you two to be together as well!!

To my Future Hubz, I am kind of glad we haven’t linked up yet because trust mii, I would have done something foolish already and you would probably be running for the hills; I thank GoD that HE is preparing us both and I pray that you are praying for our Future just as much as I am praying for it too..

Jesus, thank you for preparing us both as you already know each of us and what we are capable of but also what can hinder us from the destiny that you have spoken for us (Jeremiah 29:11) – to anyone reading this who has been struggling with Waiting, begin to pray about it and ask GoD to truly Help You!!

Your Praying and Waiting Sister,

 

AniYa A.

Blessings to you ALL