Why Am I Still Up?? LoLoL 

Many times we let small things get in the way of the Destiny that we often dream about, that we often pray about or like in my case that we spend a decade writing  about!!

Recently, I opened up to my business manager and totally shared details of my ongoing saga of the powerful, Sexxxii, brilliant man who captured my heart, first through my creative nature as I wrote about this pseudo relationship between him and the main character of my novel for years.. Then in person, just being him, smiling his beautiful smile, giving to those around him openly, rather freely and then she says, “AniYa, my mother always says, when you pray to GoD for something; believe you will get it and don’t push it away……”

“OMG’, I thought, ‘was she in my head or did she just have more wisdom than I fathomed??!!” Alas, I just realized that I didn’t have to question anything anymore and she was rite!!

Back to how I feel and how when our eyes met across the room, I forgot everything that ever was the matter before.. It was like I knew he was there, standing, chatting, being — him..

Him, the person I saw again after a year, looking ever so amazing and a tad bit dishelved, he didn’t have to be perfect for anyone else, because when I looked into his eyes, this time I saw something different!!

How does he know what goes on in my mind, my dreams?? How does he know the inner depths of mii?? How is it that I would drop everything to be near him, what kind of hold of does he even have on mii??

As I looked beyond the past and waved back, I noticed that words were NOT needed nor much movement..

Is this what LoVe is really like??

Respect, passion, secret messages of darn it’s been a while I just want to hug you.. It’s cool, I see you working the room, I see you doing you!! I’ll lay low for a minute but when I speak, this time it will be intentional..

Finally, I found more truth and naturally it excites mii!! I am more at peace totally, infinitely, he is revealing more to mii!!

Why am I up so late??

The more I’m up, is the more I create!!

  • Stay tuned for much more if what is turning out to be something I am coming to truly appreciate.. It’s ALL about Him & Mii!!

AniYa A.

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The Patience to Wait..

 

A little more than 2 weeks ago I was sitting in front of my laptop or was I putting on my coat to walk out of the door?? #Smile Either way, I was busy doing something and in the second of stillness, I heard the Lord as clearly as I am presently listening to Maya Angelous’ “Just Do Right” on Youtube, say, “Do you have the Patience to Wait??”

My first thought was directed towards my NEW desire to purchase the book, “The Wait: APowerful Practice for Finding the Love of Your Life” Waitby Devon Franklin and Meagan Good, Marriage & Waitingbut then it wasn’t why I was thinking about this thought… The thought came to me several times and I thought, it was regarding my constant working out and NOT seeing immediate results, or was it because I had to wait longer for my new apartment, a huge one bedroom in NYC which is the same price as what my parents pay for their mortgage in S. FL for their 6 bedroom, 4 bathroom mansion; or back to Waiting on GoD to send my Hubz to be!!

Last night during our weekly prayer service where we pray for people ALL over the world, I attend Times Square Church, in Times Square Manhattan; the answer finally hit me as to what I was hearing from GoD and why I kept receiving the message about Waiting..

Warning: this is NOT for the faint of heart………

hospWhen I left the hospital, in 08, after having to be rehabilitated from head to toe, I was deemed as disabled, I NEVER heard of the term before because I went to school and worked my whole L.I.F.E and was oblivious, I knew at a young age that I didn’t want to end up being a statistic but there I was jobless, one person I knew called me a degenerate, another “friend” said I was sick because I had HIV/ AIDS and was it true that I was dying?? (I told them I had NEVER contracted the HIV or AIDS and anyone could read my charts as I would give them full permission) Daily I fought, daily I cried, daily I started to believe I would die then one day a Pastor who would always pray for me came face to face with me and said, “AniYa A., you will live and NOT die and you will go back to TBN….”

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She further said, that though I could NO longer work as a full time employee due to me not being able to sit for long periods of time due to the blood clot in my lung, as a Director or Producer, I needed to stay close to GoD by working with the Christian TV Station in whatever facet I was led!!

Here is one of the major turning points of my L.I.F.E

I went from handling ALL of the prayer partners on Tuesday nights, while the “Praise the Lord” taped to becoming a Prayer Partner begging for rides from Port St. Lucie to Ft. Pierce, FL. ALL I wanted to do was get out of the mental and physical jail I was in and be productive again, so I prayed for the People NO matter what..

One day as I picked up the phone to pray, though I had so many issues I battled, I said, “Good evening my name is Sister. A. How may I pray for you??” The woman on the other end said, “Ma’am, I can’t take it no more…. Please pray for me..” As I did every Tuesday night, I got my little prayer sheet ready to take her request!!

“I am ready NOW..”

“Sister A., I need prayer for my four children!!” I could hear the tears leaving the secret safe places of her eye lids..praying

“Well, what is going on, trust me I know many people who NEED prayer for their loved ones and their children!!” Now, I said this NOT knowing the response I was going to get because I NEVER could imagine that a mother could endure so much………

“My daughter has AIDS, my son is homeless with his wife and two of their children living in their car, my other daughter is in jail and my baby son is gay!!homeless

Sister A. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME, I JUST DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!”

Without a word I almost dropped the phone, I now was crying my eyes out but I put the phone on mute so she wouldn’t hear, me a Prayer Partner crying instead of saying the right words.. I gained strength after several seconds and said, with the Lord’s help, “Darling, you are one of the strongest people I have ever spoken too……”

Caller: “Sister A. how do you figure?? I am crying to you and NEED prayer for my children because ALL of their lives are in shambles and this is NOT what I expected..”

I close here, I responded by telling her NOT many people I know would have the strength she has to be calling for prayer, instead they would be drinking and smoking their problems away, but NOT her………… She was strong enough to drop everything and reach up to the source where her help came from!! psalm121-1-2

I prayed but I almost fainted as I thought about her pain, her anguish, probably her thinking that she failed miserably in L.I.F.E..

It is 8 years later and I am asking you, “Do You Have the Patience to Wait??”

To you Mother of Four, with Strength to Endure.. Do NOT Beat Yourself Up, Open the Door for Another!!

Sister AniYa A.

The End Result

This evening as I was taking the long ride home from spending the day with my great aunt, caring for her after she had surgery, I looked up and I watched how people ran on and off the platform attempting to catch their trains. Within seconds I recalled two amazing Blessings that I have been longing to share!

Before I do share though; I have one question for you:

What does “The End Result” mean to you when you read it?

It can have many meaning as that is how L.I.F.E works, we each are the master of our own perception.

Instead of talking about the things that have been happening in my world lately, I am taking this time to share two amazing stories of people I highly regard as they waited for “The End Result!”

One was preparing for marriage and the other preparing to become a mother. I watched from a distance and prayed for the Best for them, there were days when one’s situation did NOT look as promising with negative reports coming from doctors and though she did NOT show a bit of negativity I am sure there were days when doubt settled in. She was true to GoD and stayed on HIS Word day in and day out saying, “I know what GoD Promised mii and that is what I will Trust Him For!”

WOW, IKR……. Talking about some powerful Faith (Hebrews 11:1)

I had close contact with the mother to be so the aforementioned in parenthesis were her actual words. The wife to be was quite a distance away but thank GoD for social media and other facets of communicating because I was able to witness how GoD took a beautiful hard working executive and turned her into a beautiful hard working executive and wife. She wasn’t only hard working on her daily job but this Woman of Virtue continued to prove daily that her walk got stronger daily as the date for her marriage approached! Friends, let me tell you, by the time the beautiful couple got married, I felt as though I wasn’t just watching the preparations for marriage rather GoD was also preparing mii for “The End Result” as well.

See, I have been through some rocky situations, well who hasn’t right? But what is amazing is I never thought it were possible for my mindset to change in regards to these two very touchy issues, you know like Marriage and Babies and stuff – LOLOL (sorry had to laugh here). A lot of young girls grow up playing with dolls connecting with magazine clippings, fascinating about their dream guy for their special day but I was totally different as it really didn’t occur to me that the whole marriage and building a home thing should be on the list I should be striving for. I was the oldest of 6 – where my oldest siblings at who wanted nothing to do with children because of ALL the brats.. (LOL again – J/K)

Well, I am finally at that point where I understand things much more differently and after seeing what these women accomplished practically simultaneously, in two completely different parts of the US, from different backgrounds but what they had/ have in common is that Faith – Unshakable Faith and that is more than incredible.

The Mother to Be has her Babies – Yup, got GoD’s Promise – she got her beautiful healthy fiesty little twins!

The Wife to Be has her Husband – she has GoD’s Promise – and she has a successful career but the additional blessing is that her and husband also running a franchise together!! #Hmmmmmmmmmm

I close with this simple statement: Both remained faithful to GoD and kept HIS will for their lives. They got The End Result, will you??

Best Regards,

AniYa A.

Proverbs 31 * Hebrews 11:1 * Psalm 33:9