Why Am I Still Up?? LoLoL 

Many times we let small things get in the way of the Destiny that we often dream about, that we often pray about or like in my case that we spend a decade writing  about!!

Recently, I opened up to my business manager and totally shared details of my ongoing saga of the powerful, Sexxxii, brilliant man who captured my heart, first through my creative nature as I wrote about this pseudo relationship between him and the main character of my novel for years.. Then in person, just being him, smiling his beautiful smile, giving to those around him openly, rather freely and then she says, “AniYa, my mother always says, when you pray to GoD for something; believe you will get it and don’t push it away……”

“OMG’, I thought, ‘was she in my head or did she just have more wisdom than I fathomed??!!” Alas, I just realized that I didn’t have to question anything anymore and she was rite!!

Back to how I feel and how when our eyes met across the room, I forgot everything that ever was the matter before.. It was like I knew he was there, standing, chatting, being — him..

Him, the person I saw again after a year, looking ever so amazing and a tad bit dishelved, he didn’t have to be perfect for anyone else, because when I looked into his eyes, this time I saw something different!!

How does he know what goes on in my mind, my dreams?? How does he know the inner depths of mii?? How is it that I would drop everything to be near him, what kind of hold of does he even have on mii??

As I looked beyond the past and waved back, I noticed that words were NOT needed nor much movement..

Is this what LoVe is really like??

Respect, passion, secret messages of darn it’s been a while I just want to hug you.. It’s cool, I see you working the room, I see you doing you!! I’ll lay low for a minute but when I speak, this time it will be intentional..

Finally, I found more truth and naturally it excites mii!! I am more at peace totally, infinitely, he is revealing more to mii!!

Why am I up so late??

The more I’m up, is the more I create!!

  • Stay tuned for much more if what is turning out to be something I am coming to truly appreciate.. It’s ALL about Him & Mii!!

AniYa A.

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Moonlit Sky

At the end of the day, while the sun slowly makes it’s way into another world, where the moon re-visits the mystical sky; the only question to ask is who are you??

I mean like, for real and where do you really want to be??

Maybe in someone’s warm arms other than your own, holding you tightly while their breath simultaneously meets yours….

Moments ago, I was looking at someone’s pictures and though I often see them face to face, in the beginning of this weird little dance I dismissed every notion of physical attraction but as sure as day turns into dusk and the dusk turns into dawn feelings creep in with an insurmountable amount of motion that leaves me yearning for more..

The funny thing is, just as L.I.F.E would have it, he is NOT even free to be with me!!

But then again, is he??

On this journey called L.I.F.E as the dawn eventually turns back into dusk and the sun returns into its highly sought after position, I will keep these intimate feelings to myself and pray that one day, I will be able to whisper his name into the the mystical sky as he whispers mine..

Ahhhhhhhh, yes that sweet day will come even if it is in and out of time!!

 

I bid you ALL a faire adieu – Carpe Diem..

Psalms 41

It was a windy day and it was as if a tornado was sweeping through The Treasure Coast. I had just volunteered to take a friend to the doctor as her baby (whom I loved very much) was not feeling good and though it was a nasty day out, I could not see the baby suffering. Upon me dropping my friend off at the doctor with her precious infant, I decided to take a trip to visit Mama Hazel and Mama Linda of  In the Image of Christ in Ft. Pierce, anytime I was going through something I knew going to visit these two would change my perspective and I would feel better too!

Moments after I walked in Mama Linda had me to sit down and Mama Hazel shared that they were having an event and that she had just picked the Bible verse to add to the program; without hesitation, she asked me if I wanted to hear it?

I said, yes I would!

“Psalms 41 says: Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble. The Lord will preserve him, and keep him alive; and he shall be blessed upon the earth: and thou wilt not deliver him unto the will of his enemies. The Lord will strengthen him upon the bed of languishing: thou wilt make all his bed in his sickness. I said, Lord, be merciful unto me: heal my soul; for I have sinned against thee. Mine enemies speak evil of me, When shall he die, and his name perish? And if he come to see me, he speaketh vanity: his heart gathereth iniquity to itself; when he goeth abroad, he telleth it. All that hate me whisper together against me: against me do they devise my hurt. An evil disease, say they, cleaveth fast unto him: and now that he lieth he shall rise up no more.  Yea, mine own familiar friend, in whom I trusted, which did eat of my bread, hath lifted up his heel against me. But thou, O Lord, be merciful unto me, and raise me up, that I may requite them. By this I know that thou favourest me, because mine enemy doth not triumph over me. And as for me, thou upholdest me in mine integrity, and settest me before thy face for ever. Blessed be the Lord God of Israel from everlasting, and to everlasting. Amen, and Amen.”

Mama Hazel read this scripture with so much joy in her heart and as she spoke Mama Linda smiled her sweet smile, while I thought to myself, “How did she know I needed to hear that at this exact second?” That’s when it became rather clear that it wasn’t her who knew but it was GoD in HIS Divine Mercy and Grace.

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It’s like this, my brethren while we are going through the most horrendous situations in our lives we tend to want to give up because we do NOT expect hardships NOR do we expect to make it through to the other side of pain. That day I stopped into the headquarters of one of my most favorite Ministries, I just wanted to be in the presence of women whom share pieces of their hearts with me. These women are so loving, compassionate and caring that I could be boo whoo crying and ALL they have to do is look into my eyes and say a simple word. Tonight, this message is for someone going through a battle in decision making.

This message is NOT a typical message that I would write as it is actually going to give someone an answer they have been seeking GoD for, here is the Divine Revelation of why this is going to answer a question for you! NOT only is it Divinely Appointed for me to share it before the midnight hour but it is also because you have been wanting to go into one direction, maybe into a ministry that you had your heart set on but you have been conflicted in your spirit as now you are changing your mind but are NOT sure if you are making the right choice. Tonight, the Lord is saying, come to HIM, sit still in HIS presence and know that HE is here with you! You will get the sign you have been seeking and it has to do with helping those in NEED of what you can help them with.

YOU, yes YOU, have a special gift that brightens others days when you are near and sometimes when you are NOT making others smile, you feel down and out. Wow, do you know what I am talking about? I believe YOU do…… The Lord does and did know you would read this and HE is saying it’s ok, let HIM HELP YOU!

{To Mama Hazel and Mama Linda, I don’t know if you understand how much you have encouraged me throughout the years but that day was sooooooo special to me and I will never ever ever forget it and I pray for you 2 always too}

Have a #Blessed night.

AniYa A.